My heart beats faster. For some reason, my heart aches as though I just lost a best friend. I feel like I could burst into tears any moment now even though I have absolutely no reason to.
It takes conscious effort to maintain my breathing in its rhythm – as though I would forget to take a breath if I did not concentrate on it. It just feels… off.
It feels like someone is peering over my shoulder – constant paranoia. Very uncomfortable. Makes the skin at the back of my neck crawl.
I get the nagging feeling something really, really, really bad is about to happen soon.
There are days I wish I were not me. Today is one. Nothing to do but plug on and hope it goes away soon.
Anyone else here ever suffer from anxiety or similar disorders?
August 29, 2008 at 7:27 am
anxiety was calling for an ambulance on Tuesday 6.30a.m, after colleague quoting “i don’t feel well” followed by loud thud as he the floor.
medical services were good & so he’s now in Miri General & down-graded from ICU room to Ward.
ppl now commenting on the strange numbing sensations in various limbs that they have been experiencing. everybody quietly ‘adjusting’ their life-styles, less oil, etc., etc.
is natural to feel worried.
shit happens, butlife goes on.
is best not to dwell too long on any fears or negatives,
but rather, enjoy what you have,
& that’s the gift of being able to breathe.
August 29, 2008 at 7:59 am
What was wrong with your colleague in the end? I hope he is doing well.
It is natural to feel worried, but what about when you experience all the symptoms of worry except that you don’t know what it is you are worried about?
People keep tell me that too. Don’t dwell, don’t think too much on it… it is one of those easier-said-than-done things because, aside from death, how does one stop one’s brain from fluttering from thought to thought?
August 30, 2008 at 5:28 am
oh my word all the time. and not just first days of school (which really get me) normally im pretty outgoing but even sometimes meeting new people or when i lose all my words. i dunno, in the end i have just been meditating to myself whenver i feel all that anxiety creep up on me. if i just breathe i steady myself :)